I have started several blogs but not gotten much past a title and some cool backgrounds, waiting for inspiration and feeling a little overwhelmed with what and how to write.  Looking for a reason to start a blog, my courage comes and goes when it seems obvious that my Mormon mommy perspective is a dime a dozen, my gluten free recipes are from someone else's favorite blog and my DIY is an old rocking chair I've been meaning to recover for three years and its still the same ugly green.  But lately, my need for both clarity and connection with other women struggling with similar challenges has lead me to try again.

Our dishwasher is broken, which for now, gives me scratchy hands and time to compose lots ideas in my head.  As a stay at home mother of three and wife of a Mormon bishop I have questions!  Is motherhood going to be doing dishes and diapers for eternity?  Would going back to work make me feel less resentful of my husband's growth?  What is it that really makes me happy?  And is me being happy what I should be focused on?  I want to know.  So I'm starting this mental and virtual journey of my own.

I read somewhere online that blogging has lots of pros.  Blogging (says the random online source I can't remember) is good for improving your writing skills.  That's a positive right?   But more than writing skills, I'm hoping to improve my reflecting skills.  That some how blogging can help me recognize what I am searching for, what I need to change and find meaning in my daily life in this journey of motherhood I have undertaken.  Truthfully, I really need someone to talk things over with, who charges nothing, listens more than talks and that if things get too messy I can just press the delete button and haven't disclosed too much or overshared.
So let the journey begin.